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Sunday, January 4th, 2009
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6:46p - Eh ...
I haven't posted here in forever. I won't even bother trying to backtrack on updates at this point.
Things are going.. alright for me, and horribly, at the same time. Heh. Life really is not that bad. I have at least a chance at becoming a groomer somewhere down the line. I have family that loves me. Still no friends in person, but several online that are great. Yet nothing moves me anymore. I feel like a robot sometimes. Happiness is almost nonexistent, other feelings are just hints of what they used to be. I don't know what's wrong with me. I guess I'm depressed.
I rarely get out of the house, because.. well, why? I hardly enjoy the things I used to. My motivation and focus have been sapped to the point that it takes a great deal of pushing for me to even do things I need to do. This plus my aversion to the phone doesn't make for an easy time of trying to find a way to get help, though. God, I hope I find a way to snap out of this soon...
This has become one big whine, but I guess that's what journals are for.
current mood:  blank
current music: Breaking Benjamin 'So Cold'
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