InsaneJournal

Current mood:

drained

Ugh... just ugh.
My day was.. horrible. And I shall whine here instead of bothering my friends with it.

I have no idea how I'm going to make it through two weeks of work with only Sundays off. So far it's only been two days and I am already burnt out. They've been an awful two days, I really wish I was going to be off tomorrow as usual. I had to wash a Husky that... I don't know if the poor thing has ever once seen a bath or a brush. It has to have been at least a year either way. It took me an hour, and I still didn't get out as much fur as I would have liked to. I pity the girl that was going to have to brush him out. I do wish I could have seen him afterward though. He already looked A LOT better. Too bad the owner will probably wait another year or two before bringing him back. Most of them do. As if that wasn't bad enough, for some reason most of the dogs wanted to bite me. None of them succeeded, but it was still awful. It makes everything a lot more difficult.

Of course, Chase's recheck at the vet makes the work day seem nice. The vet thinks he may have either a tumor in his chest or congestive heart failure, judging by the x-rays she took of his chest. You can barely see his heart in them. There are other possibilities... but they are real long-shots, those two are most likely. So I go from stressing over a stubborn UTI to... having to face the possibility my cat may not live much longer. I alternate between crying over it and denying it. I don't know what to do. It was such a shock. He just had x-rays not two months ago and his heart was nice and clear as it should be. Do I shell out tons of money confirming the diagnosis and working out medications and dealing with special diets when she didn't sound hopeful that it would even help him at this point? I don't make a lot of money, and as much as I don't want money to be a factor in whatever I decide, it has to be. It would be different if I knew it would help, but to go further into debt for something that doesn't? God.. I don't want to have to make these decisions.. I just want my boy to be alright. Somehow.

For now.. we are trying another antibiotic in hopes of getting his infection under control. His white count went up from the last time, so the first one obviously wasn't doing its job. He got sub-Q fluids at the vet, and I am to give him more at home for the next couple of days. That will be.. interesting. I'm pretty sure I can do it easily enough from what they showed me. But it won't be easy sticking my boy with a needle and making him sit there for it.